♥ Sweetie your sadly mistaken ♥

I found out just a little under a month a go that I was moving to Idaho when I found out I didn't know what to think but was that I hated my mom and if that I wanted to be treated this way I would still see my dad. Just a week later my mom started to bring home boxes to start packing I was so upset let's just say I did thing that were not good and hurt not just me but others around me. Anyways well as the days went by I started to sink and my grades droped and my mom wasn't happy and started to call me names like retared and I won't go on I have never had anything lower than a c and I got I c- and she went off needless to say I made it out alive but to get to the point I am able to do thing that I wasn't able to just because we are moving I still don't want to move but I will have to live. It is never easy to move but to move from Oregon to Idaho no scratch that I fucking hate my mom and I hope that fat fuck. Rotes in hell I fucking hate her I hate her god why must I freaking be treated like I am two I fucking bought my house key I want to fucking keep it stupid bitch god well at least I get to spend the night with my friends and forget the holw fucking world I fucking hate moving

I have only 6 more days lest untell i move to  Idaho. I am not happy  about  moving but when you have gone through what i have it is normal running from anything and everything that scares you and stangles you that slams your head into a heater because you did spend enough time on the dishes. Because spending 4 or so hours trying to clean pans and plates that sat there with food on them for weeks at a time to not being able to sleep at night because you head just wont fucking turn off or stop yelling at you!!!! what are you going to do swollow pills and see if you can get sleep or be able to have friends and or just to trust anybody?  yeah i am called emo because i have done thing but I AM NOT A FUCKING WALKING MUSIC NOTE!!!!!!! emo is a genre of music. So when you hear people around you saying that they are so emo or they call people emo reach over and slap them ( not really) but God what the hell you dont want to be called a prep or nerd it fucking hurts yeah my e-mail is xXRachel_is_emoXx I DIDNT MAKE IT  my ex did and because i didnt want to make one yeah i kept it but that is the only way  i ever talked  to him after me moved to Chicago.... i didnt wake up on day and say oh i am going to be emo or i am going to cute myself because i want to fit in YOU WONT and IF YOU ONLY ADD OR ADDED ME BECUASE I LOOK "EMO" THAN DONT WASTE YOUR TIME AND DELETE ME.......please?

                                   Rachel

i am sleepy i am so done with the hole packing and moving. i dont understand how people can just pack and go granted i can if i really want to i have done it before i just dont want to move to Post Falls Idaho yeah yeah yeah you are going to like yeah yeah yeah i am going to miss you BS there are only i a couple people that will miss me i just remembered that i have a friendorenemies wow i think my name is rachel93....yeah it is why that matters well it doesnt i just want to crawl into a corner and sleep and wake up somewhere warm and not so much like hell. want to wake up and belong not to be called emo i am not a walking music note and i really hope i dont look like one or i am bigger problems than i thought well i am off to bed it is 12:10 and i have to get up in 3 or 4 hours i havent thought of what time to get up yet but i will  maybe i will wake up and be somewhere that i can just have the hole world shut off and i think clearly and i can know how to freakin spell god i suck at spelling no somewhere that i am happy to at and my head just shutes down just for a moment so i can breath and maybe not do what it is i do so much and maybe try to reach for the stars and end up right back here nowhere and lost just another dreamer like every kid you see or maybe?....................... i am out and goodnight

                                                         Rachel

if you really read this than you must be the few who like me or even talk to me leave a note so i know who to talk to or right back you would make my day..................or not?