♥ Sweetie your sadly mistaken ♥

Ok happy new year!!!! I am havin so much fun....but I had to promise myself that I won't get sick!!!...









Again...but don't forget to have fun!!!!!!

'' Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Choose--me or ur life

Boy: my life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

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I won...don't ask about what....just know that I won and fuck it is cold outside...

I am walking in the snow,it crunches lightly under foot.My cheeks sting at the winds kiss,But i don't carebecause I'm walking aimlessly to...who knows where?And it's like that if you think hard enough,you can get where you want,go where you please.I want to go back to school though,break is enfeebling my mind,how annoying.
Time tends to eat away at things,decay one's heart slowly.It's funny how fast time can destroy you,bring down the old...shapeing your every thought.Fuck i think I hit me head.
I miss you,time is a distraction...to thinking about how...time is spereating me and you.It's really absurd how I care so much.How i just knew you for a little while,but i started to (cough) love you.Ick i hate that word too...time, whish i could rewind it,then pause.Maybe I hit my head a little too hard.

Dear heart,
Your melody is lonley, broken, and sad,for there is a memory of love you once had.
Frightend,you beat with tears and lies,for you have given up on loving and second tries.
Be happy as you mourn,for your rip has grown stonger for now you are tourn.
The feeling of warmth is some how there.hold it with happyness for you do not know how much longer it will be there.
Staple the rips and forget the pain,for your love is new and the hate has drain.

Omg....it isn't even new years and I can't seem to not get drunk....Last night was pretty bad...at least I didn't wake up next to anybody....I woke up in the tube wet and cold...





And note The Used sounds better drunk jk but no never try dancin in the shower half sober to The Used lol

her cries go unheard,Etched into the nights innocent air, untold.She is afraid, afraid to live again, afraid to be freebecause of what you had left of her.
Sinful blankets of sorrow held lies to be cried,And secrets to whispered at nightinto the untelling night air.And thoughts to be thought of, with hardly any care.With the realization nothing matters here, if only she did.
noone cares about her, how she feels,Loved her and dropped her with a crazed smile and turned away.like she ever really mattered any way.When she is finally left cold and dead in no more despair, on the ground.Will anything have mattered what she did, what she said,when in the end she finally found out no one cared,That's why she was left dead, finally not afraid.

I was afraid to be betrayed or maybe to scarded to care or perhaps shareIn love to wish apon a doveTotal absulution...or in some deranged delusionI laugh on behalf of something or nothingToday...tommorrow for sorrow.It's not icky...it's a pityWhat's the drama...where's the showTell me the story so that I would knowAnticlimatic...resolution...default.If he imagins she dies then they both cry.Images...theories...thoughts the mind.




Don't ask why?

"There's something living down the drain"Liar. (I told you) It was all in your head.
"I see things after dark."And yet you couldn't see me, right in front of your face; against the light of day.
"I hear things..."Everything except my voice in your ear.
"Go home. I don't want you here."
Oh just point me there,and I'm gone. I'll never come back to you, to this.To all the things you made up for usso we wouldn't have to worry about it.About the nowhere's we were headedand all the ugly things inside you.There were rats crawling in the wallsand monsters living under the bed,but I was pure imagination.. I was a whisper on the wind.
Living in grave yards,we just needed a new headstone and a nice plotto call our's, and we were set for enternities;for the silence that was relationand the cold, heartless nights;spent all alone by your side.

God one can only take so much of the jumpping and pulling of the hair!!!! "-" Grrrrrr Aiden is such a little fucker!!!!!!! Idk if I am going to babysit him anymore!!!!!?????

your so amazing,im sure you know,i was yours from the beginning,you had me at hello.
when you bid goodbye,my heart falls to a darker place,but when your lips form hello,my heart begins to race.
you had me at hello,one word can mean so much,from your forgiving kind eyes,to your everlasting touch.
you'd had me at hello,but now you have to go?now I hang on to your good bye,I promise I won't cry?

Trapped inside. I can't get out. Trapped outside. No one understands what i'm talking about. I feel my life fall apart. I can't escape from here. I can feel the chains wrap around my heart. I feel too much fear. Somebody rescue me. I'm falling too fast. I remember who i used to be. But i can't change the past. Chained to this nightmare. I'm trapped in chains. I wish somebody will break me free. But i will never escape anything my life contains. Holding on tight. I feel my grasp loose it's grip. I can feel my heart beat. As my foot starts to slip. A light shines through me. I see something no one can ever replace. I see an image in the darkness. But i can't see his face. Gasping for breath. He spoke what he felt. Choking on the atmosphere. He made my heart melt. He had the key to the chains i was trapped in. Trapped in the scars. My existence feels void. I can feel the strength he gave me. Increase from within. This old life must be destroyed.

IF I TOLD..... YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I REALLY LOVED YOU WOULD YOU SAY U REALLY LOVED ME BACK

IF I TOLD ....YOU I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU WOULD YOU SAY THE SAME?.......IF I TOLD YOU ...THAT YOU WHERE THE MOST SEXYEST BOYWOULD YOU TELL ME THE SAME..
IF I TOLD YOU ..THAT UR THE ONLY THING I THINK ABOUT WAT WOULD U SAY... WOULD U BE MINE THEN
IF I TOLD YOU..... THAT ALL OF THE OTHER GIRLSA THAT YOU THOUGHT WAS GOOD LOOKING WHERE UGLYWOULD YOU TELL ME IM HATIN OR WOULD U AGREE

IF I TOLD.... YOU UR THE ONLY THING I WANT ...WOULD YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT ME
IF I TOLD YOU...... WE WERE MENT TO BE...WOULD YOUAGREE???

feeling his handsmoving aroundtelling me he wantsnot a sound
sparked with angeri want to lashi just wish this would be over fast
touching mehaving his wayit's happened beforeand to this day
he comes back tonightbut with a tooli started thinking"im a fool"
a shiny metalglimered in the darkit looked so sleekand also so sharp
daddy stabbed meafter his funnow i won't liveto see the morning sun

My lips are cracked and bleedingeither from disuse or apologies,because I can never seem to get anything right.This is the fifteenth time and I'm still tryingto make it sound like I can speak in morethan one-liners and cliches, but it looks like failing is what I do best.
I told you I didn't care for sunrises,and asked if it would be cynical to say this was our last.You said I was being realistic.
I hope you die some way painful.Begging and pleading for someone to slit your throat to save you.If I wanted honesty I'd make enemies,you were supposed to be lying,hiding my eyes from the world and saving my ignorancefor all the other days I would have to waste alone.But you just can't be bothered with the way things should be,and I hope it brings you only the worst.

We were into basement living,whenever you decided you were alive.I knew I'd hate you before we met,but I was hoping we could try. So now I'm into burying people breathing,and you'll be my favourite victim.You might die with my hand on the shovel,but your heart stopped beating years ago.
And just imagine how much time we could've hadif you spent less of it worrying about your ego.Your hair didn't make up for your lack of personality,and it only made me jealous(to think you could touch yourself more than me).
I hope it was worth it,the everything you passed up to get where you are(underground and moving downward.)because this is just the beginningof some sort of intimate relationship between us,(your corpse and my arms)and the start of my own sort of infamy(something better than your's.)And we might be on the run for years,but you've never looked better.And you've never deserved less.
I might be sick in the head,but I'm still the one with the shovel and a pen.You're just an empty head staring back at me.(and that's all you've ever been.)

Okay today t
My skool went into lock down and brought in search doggs



And guess what my locker was on of the ones opened


Yeppy so I get called out and the dog like licks me a couple times and then grawls at me..so I back up and the people start yelling at me to get down and put my bag down on the ground...after that the dogs dig in my bag and and take out my chapstick... Stupid Fucks....anyways so now I am on the hw watch thing wich makes everything worse considering I am on probation already... Then the bell rings (oh by the way there was nothing in any of my shit!!!!) So anyways after 5th period I go into the bathroom and girls are trying to flush shit down ..... Go into 6th and somebody walks in and yells if you have any dope them you are fucked and walks out everybody looks around then looks at me...... WHAT THE HELL????????????


I am not a fucking druggy!!!!!















Anymore??????

Did you notice whispers of yesterday?I found them lurking where demons lay.Ignoring the signs you forged your mask,I had the answers, but you wouldn't ask.
Did you listen to the gossip of wifes?They spoke of a butcher with knife.You put on the gloves and went away,they fear a murderer dressed in grey.
Did you read the paper this morning?It interviewed a lady still in mourning.Your eyes viewed its image like a dream,it was with a grin you replied the scream.
Did you observe the mainstreet at dawn?On it lay a body with the head off-sawn.I knew you were smiling at the very sight,on the sight of your masterpiece last night.
Did you finally realize that the man is you?He only masks himself to hide the very clue.Your face in the moonlight that everyone know,he left tracks to your doorstep in the snow.
Did you understand why they put you here?Or is it just a posessed man in your stare?This sick feast of hearts did you not enjoy?Or are your limbs just another man's toy?

With pain so deep and dark its choking me,
It seems my emotions will never be free
In the darkness, shines a light
Behold the razor, a temptress of pain, a beautiful sight
She offers me to take her hand
And take me away, to a far off land
In awe of her beauty my hand clasped with hers
So hypnotizing, how it allures,
So many to her fortress never to return again,
So many die, before they even try
Upon entering, I realized
There was no way out, I will surely die
It was okay, that's what I wanted
She waved my life in the air, how she taunted
Just out of my reach was the key
That would allow me to be free
My pain grew deeper, my strength became weaker
Holding on day to day
Was so much harder than I could say
But each day the razor came
I know its sad, what a shame
Razor met my wrist, they became friends, oh the bliss
My sadness wasn't over,
Though I felt lucky, like I'd found a four leaved clover
Little did I know my source of pleasure was a source of pain
Razor and her land, drove me insane
Taunting me with freedom I never had
To cut a little deeper, don't be sad,
To end this life will begin another
If I was really tired of helping others,
In an act of desperation I hacked,
Poured my hurt into the attack
In that land lightning cackled
There goes another one, breaking her shackles
With tears of lonliness in my eyes,
That is exactly how I died
I wanted to escape one pain,
But in the end I only did gain,
So much more, too much to handle,
Even deeper in that darkness without a candle
The God of Death knocked at my door,
He grabbed my soul off the floor,
And took me away, never to return,
Into the fiery pits I'll burn
My razor met my wrist
It started out with such bliss,
And it ended in this?

my throat is thick with unshed tearsand hidden fears that i cannot expressbecause we all knowi'm a messand this would justmake it worsedon't need another opinion to make my life"complete." i'll just accept defeatand we can quietlymove on with our lives
yet i am not alivehow do you tell the undeadto get over itwhen i'm under itburied between the pastand my self-hatredin my book there is no futureto look forward to.
and i just need to sleepi need to speakand i need a pair of earsto hearand a fucking brainto tell me what's supposed to happen now?

We've been though a lotGood Times and BadScary and fun,happy and sad.
You love meand I love you-as friends of course!..you know its true.
For you but for me I still love you You were always therewhen i was downgave great advice,and flipped my frown
Our friendship was good,it was one of the bestbut now, I'm so sorryI must lay my head to rest.
It's just too muchI can't take it anymoreIt's you i think of, while i lie on the cold floor
I'm sick of the hurttired of the pain.and you know best of all,how my tears poor like rain.
My love for you is still here,please, promise you won't cryFor my love is eternalbut now i say Goodbye...love Zack



I got this letter in the mail this morning(well yesterday I didn't check the mail) from my friend zack he commeted suicide three days ago...I got a phone call from his parents yesterday telling me he passed away and yelling it in my ear how it was my fault(they don't know about the letter) they yelled at telling me that "I was a stupid little bitch for sending him home...and that it wasn't his home that he was my problem and that he belong with a dirty little whore like me" I just sat there like I was three again I tryed telling them that all he wanted was for them to say hi in the mornings to get a hug somebody that would be there for him and kiss him no matter where. All I said was sorry and in return I got" you fucking skank you sleep with everyone...weather it walks or not you are going to hell you turned my kid into a faggot (even though he didn't like men he like women) and that you need to be less of a shellfish bitch and pay me back for all the shit I have spent on your fuckin love"


Yeah whatever I am not a virgan so what they walked in once and my nickname became a slut...I am used in so many ways poss. My dad told me that I was his little gurl and when I said no he would do so anyway... I broke his ribs and put him in a cage... Zack was my best friend and some(most would say my love of three years) he died not because he was "emo" he died because his parents didn't love him...he didn't even live with them but yet he didn't have permission to move with me
So what he wore tight pants and had black and purpal hair...





This prob. Doesn't make much scence but it means a lot to me...

I think we could be wonderfulAnd I think you'll be the last strawIf you're beautiful and exciting Then I'm a messAnd I think I'm perfect for you.And by that, of courseI mean I'll never get out of this.
So I'll stay for an hour,If you stay for half,We'll be happy for a secondAnd we'll never laugh.
So let's try this out.We're better off knowing.Right?But I'll never tell you the thingsYou want to here.I'll never whisper anything.We will never speak,Just know that I'm trying.Just know that's all I can do.You're beautiful and exciting.But I'll never love you






Sorry

He covers his arm to hide the scarHe remembers someone saying no one cares who you areHe bought a ticket and came to the danceHe gave socializing one last chanceHe sat in the back from everyone He fledHe cut up his arms and cried as he bledPeople kept away as he bled on the floorTears ran down his face as he bled some more"What is he doing?""How long has he cried?"They asked as they watched this Innocent suicide...


Nobody knows why he did it

He was my friend and the note said his heart was in it????

I miss him....

A boy and a girl, the best of friendsFrom elementary to high schoolfrom beginning to end.
Through all those yearstheir friendship grew.They both felt the same,but neither knew.
Each waking momentsince the day they met.They both loved each othersunrise to sunset.
He was all she hadin her terrible life.He was the onewho kept her from her knife.
She was his angel, she made him smile.Though life threw him curves, she made it all worth while.
Then one daythings went terribly wrong.The next few weekswere like a very sad song.
He made her jealouson purpose he tried.When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"on purpose he lied.
He played with jealousylike it was a game.Little did he knowThings would never be the same.
His plan was workingbut he had no clue.How wrong things would go, the damage he would do.
One night she broke down, feeling very alone.Just her and the blade, no one else home.
She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello"She told him she loved himand hung up the phone.
He raced to her housejust a minute too late.Found her lying in blood, her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a note, in it her confession.Her love for this boy, her only obsession.
As he read the note, he knelt down and cried.Grabbed her knife, that night they both died.
She was found in his arms, both of them dead.Under her notehis handwriting said:
"I loved her so, she never knew.All this timeI loved her too.

Yelling and Yelling that is all i hearyelling and more yellingas I cover my ears"Can't you do anything right?"I guess not"Get out of my sight!"ok sure why not?yelling and yellingoh, please shut upI'm tired of all this noiseI'm tired of you on my backyell and screamgo right aheadjust like you did when you were having me on that hospital bedyou shouldn't have meyou knew what was comingand now you yell and complainof how I an such a painyelling and yellingkeep goingyell and yell some morebecause I am the one who's notlistening anymore

I just in the conner...but I don't cry anymore..:(

I am writing you this poem becauseThere are so many things that I haven’t saidI just don’t know how to tell youBut the words keep floating through my head.
My whole life is a mess right nowAll I can think about is youI don’t sleep, I don’t eat anymoreAnd I discovered feelings that are so new.
I want to hear your voiceEvery minute of the dayI just don’t have the guts to call youAfraid of what you might say.
Maybe you don’t feel the sameOr maybe you doI am just scared to tell my feelingsEven if it is to you.
I wish I knew how to tell youI really want to say:I love you with all of my heartForever and a day

I have my dog snoring in one ear...trying to listen to killing hannah in the other...while with a hangover from hell...I am very sleepy oh crap I have homework to. It is very interesting how you can go from a very fun filled night to a very cold and lonley one???? Strange how things happen????

His touch is like a warm summer breezeHis kiss is like a tingling teaseThe way he strokes my hairI understand how much he caresThe way he looks at me with those brown eyesHe has me hooked, he has me mesmerizedWhen he takes his hands and gently lays them on meI feel the warmth and security that no one can replaceWhen I look into his eyes of brown that have me mesmerizedI can honestly sayYes I want to be with you... and you onlyFor the rest of my life.....but the knife took urs I love you still but warning signs never ment a thing to you as you lay there each night do you watch me cry for you??? I am not so happy without you and the secret torment of you and I...7 years have passed and you never leave your love behind....

Sessions are free they start when I hide,Begin with a girl who is dying inside,Ends with a cut and a bloody knife,And continues on with a depressing life,
I wish I could make you all see,I can get better with my own therapy,My solution to my disorder,Came from the mind of a disillusioned daughter
Each session lasts as long as I need,The effect is how well I bleed,If I died would I wish I had stayed,I think about it and Im not afraid.
Many words are spoken,Cant help a heart broken,A lost girl with an roaming mind,Wanders through thoughts of dieing

I can’t dieno one will let mebut i still tryi’m trying as hard as i canthe freak everyone told me i am,needs to go away
those people say they care for methey say they want me to feel happyall of that is such bull shitthey can’t understand it’s a feelingi fucking hate those peopleall of my friendsmake the feeling even stronger
i don’t want to fucking talk to you about any of this shit!they’re ignorant to human emotionand they’re complete fucking idiots
they try to help by bringing up my pasti’m gayi’ve been raped vioilently 3 times in the past yeari trusted that fucking cuntshe promised me she’d never tell
i didn’t even tell her about the third time
a week later everyone knew
the feeling was there beforebut you made it strongerit made it stronger
i fucking hate myself
the only way i can stop this painthe only way i can feel happythe only way i can feel other than painis if i dieif i die a horrible, painful, bloody death
if they loved me,they’d let me die
i hate you!
it’s your fault!
you made me feel even more shit you conceded bitch
you’re selfish for keeping me here
dragging me through the pain
keeping me from feeling anything other than hate & pain
i hope you fucking die with me

Erasing....erasing.....not knowing what to write.I wright then erase becauseit dosent sound right it is hard to erase when you are hurts and is tight. When it is carved so deep that you might just sleep through the night.I think and think but nothing comes to mind.But erasing is not writting unless it is on my time...

Through the eyes of a young girlA girl bound to a dead lifeShe sits in her room aloneAlone with nothing but her knife
She stares at her bladeSees herself and her pastAnd the reason why She couldn't make her life last
It started when she 7 a sweet little girlShe was so sweetAnd didn't deserve what was coming to her
Her parents were fighting Over her conditionYou see, she was also somewhat deafBut she heard what happened next
A gunshot sounded the roomWhen she sort of heard a man downstairsShe started to cry But the torture wouldn't end there
The year of her 12th birthday She sat in her room all dayA very familiar man came up to herHer bed alone in blood is where she would lay
Age 13, finally a teenAnd she wasn't thrilledShe knew her life endedWhen her mother was killed
Her 14th birthday, just like any other dayMiserable and sad with the rainThe next day though She met a boy named Dane
Her life was finally turning aroundAnd for the better She came home and checked mailAnd found a letter
She found it next to a bodyShe found the body familiarIt was the dead bodyThe body of her father
Though she hated himFor all the pain and torment he put her throughShe started to cryFor one reason and one reason alone
He kept her away from horrible foster familiesAnd from further tormentHer destroyed lifeFound her again
They told her a week laterHer father killed himselfHe wrote "I'm sorry for killing my wifeAnd my daughter, hold on to what you have left"
She stayed in her room at the homeShe wanted to end what was leftShe would give anythingShe had no way out but death
She stared at her photoThe one of her and DaneShe soon realized Life was more than it claimed
She did have someone who loved herShe knew someone who caredThe young girl ranAnd continued to dare
She wrote a letterAnd left it on the desk She ran as fast as she could And cried less and less
One of her friendsThere at the hell denSaw the letter on the deskAnd this is what it said
"For the past 5 yearsI have lived in hellI wanted to end my lifeAnd get out of this damn cell
But now I seeThrough all of the darknessThere is lightAnd showed me kindness
His name is DaneHe is my love and my lifeThe one man who caresHe is my knight
He has given me a reason to liveHe has caused me to thinkIt's not worth the dramaTo let my heart sink



But not really I can only dream that that has happend I still haven't learned shit and I don't intend to!!!!!!!

All I ever wanted was to be loved.All I ever wanted was someone to hug.All I ever wanted was someone to walk with.All I ever wanted was someone to talk with.All I ever wanted was someone to be there.All I ever wanted was someone to hold me when I'm scared.All I ever wanted was someone to help me when I'm down.All I ever wanted was someone to turn my frown upside down.All I ever wanted was someone to help me with my fears.All I ever wanted was someone to dry my pouring tears.All I ever wanted was someone to love me for who I am.All I ever wanted was someone to give a damn!All I ever wanted I knew I'd never get,the ladder underneath my feet, I guess it must have slipped.All I ever wanted I never got,So tell my friends and family I said thanks a lot!




Not that they would care?????

Deep in depressionI raise the knife to my wristI push down hardAnd run the blade across my skinFeeling nothing at all I do it againNever stopping to think Who will be affected Who will care enough to stop meSoon enough I stop I see the knife in my handThere is blood on the bladeI dont remember anythingWondering whose blood it is I look downMy wrist and arm are covered with blood I laugh at the sight of itI never get up to wash the bloodInstead I begin all over again

March onward brave soldierRifle poised to a big gray skyPray that you will make it homeAnd upon foreign soil you do not dieThis battle will soon be wonIt'll be over before it's begunHoist the flag, wave your banner proudSay the Pledge of Allegiance and say it loudSo that all may hear you, throughout the landStanding unyielding, tall and grandFilled not by fear, with saluting handFighting for what you believe to be rightA beacon of a hopeful lightThrough hardship and warWhen minds grow weary and bodies soreBefore your country and before your Lord'Til the end of time, when brakes your life's cordNever surrender, never give up, you are a victorSo march onward brave soldier

I can't fit inside your orderly shellI'm just a person, with human flawsUpon this disappointment, you should not dwellDrawing outside bolded lines isn't breaking laws
I'm just a person, with human flawsAsking you to give me a single chanceDrawing outside bolded lines isn't breaking lawsSo take a new path, come with me and dance
Asking you to give me a single chanceI'll make sure that you remember meSo take a new path, come with me and danceLet your heart soar, set your dreams free
I'll make sure that you remember meUpon this disappointment, you should not dwellLet your heart soar, set your dreams freeI can't fit inside your orderly shell

Roses are redViolets are blueI'm stuck on you like rubber on glueI've given you my heart I've given you my soulI've given you everything I ownI've spent all my money buying you a chocolate or 2So why won't you just be my BOO

Roses are res
Lemons are sour
Open your legs and give me an hour
Kissing is a habbit
Fucking is a game
Guys get all the pleasure
Girls get all the pain
10 minutes of pleasure 9 months of pain
3 days in the hospital
A baby without a name
The daddy is a bastard
The mother is a whore
This wouldn't have never happend if the rubber hadn't tore
Sex is mathe you subtract the clothes add the bed divide the leg and pray to god you don't mulitiply
Roses are red
Grass is green
Open your legs and ill fill you with cream
Sex is good sex is fine doggy style & 69
Just for fun or gettin paid
Everyone likes getting laid
Roses are nice
Violets are fine
Ill be the six if you will be the nine???

I really do not like snow but no my god for sakin mother had to move to idaho we can't even walk outside without it above our ankles and my poor dog it is up to his tummy he does like going out in (he is a spoiled brat) other than that board and now whatching The Nightmare Before Christmas oh how I miss the rain??????

I LOVE YOU SIERRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss you nic pic lol